I bought myself an All Saints leather jacket and it was a big moment for me. Now, some of you might be a little confused as to why buying myself something is a milestone. Buying myself something usually doesn’t take effort on my part and actually, I could probably do with practicing some restraint when it comes to shopping. 😉
But buying this All Saints leather jacket definitely was an accomplishment as I’ve been struggling to practice what I preach when it comes to my own body acceptance. I gained weight these last couple of years due to some thyroid issues. My one leather jacket I own feels uncomfortably tight but I’ve refused to invest in another leather jacket because I’ve been unhappy with my weight gain and wanted to fit into the old one that I love. Even when I had a credit to a store with gorgeous leather jackets, I opted to go for designer bags instead because I didn’t want to buy a jacket in my current size.
Today I was passing by All Saints after my workout and noticed they had a big end of season sale. I found the exact style leather jacket I love (a cropped moto jacket) and tried one on at 50% off and it fit perfectly. But at first I walked away; I actually left the store. I didn’t feel that I deserved to spend the money on myself.
However, I then reminded myself that punishing myself for being at my current weight is exactly what I talk about NOT to do. And why should I not wear clothes that make me feel good AS I AM right now? I’m worthy of something nice NOW and I don’t have to lose 20 pounds to own nice things. I felt anxious and uncomfortable making the purchase but I pushed myself to buy the jacket (with some of the Chanukah money I was given). I feel like this was a positive step in working on being kinder to myself on my long journey toward body positivity.
What have you done lately to be kind to yourself?
On a completely different note, how cool is this wall? Kelly and I shot this look in Williamsburg right after getting my hair done at Amika during fashion week. I did a happy dance when we came across it. 🙂 Williamsburg is a big pain for me to get to from where I live but I have to say, the trek was absolutely worth it. And I loved how my hair turned out as well!
All Saints Leather Jacket: Balfern Leather Biker Jacket Dress: Jupe NYC c/o, last year. Similar polka dot dress: spot ruffle flute dress Shoes: Aldo Stessy K pump c/o Maybelline Bag: Classic single jumbo flap bag